Friday, January 26, 2007

Cant tell it all

yesterday was just like everyother. went to bed at 3am when i have a class at 9 its a bad habit i need to stop, still working on it. went about my business, gave credit to whom it was due and headed for class cursing at the cold weather and wishing i didnt ahve to wince in pain from the cold stumping against my sides and chest. i slipped and almost fell like three times before i got into class. im in class and its all nice and dandy cos thank goodness i dont ahve to leave the building till 4pm so i dont ahve to risk getting back into the cold. well my fone rang while i wa sin class and it was some person who was looking for a place to stay. it so happened that i had been without a roomamte for two months and i have been footing teh bills all the while and for a person with no job, it comes at a bigger price than i am willing to pay. yes i get to live in peace and without interference from no body but then on the other ahnd i lack the wherewithal to live like that just yet. i walked out into the cold went tup to meet this person and talked about the possibilities of having to withstand this person for as needed. well it so happened that as i went with this person to pick teh persons bags and stuff and help the person settle in, i walked to pick my mails and what i saw made me so stupefied that for the next ten minutes i didi not say a word, i was aphasic and thought i probably had had a right sided strong or something. i had prayed for certain things to fall through for a pretty long time, and it ahd to do with the uscis, for you interbnational students that have had to do a change of status or the sought of thing, u would know what i am talking about, ithas drained me physically, finanacially, emotionally and u name it, at a point i began to question the reason i made a step but well it so happened that at a point all i did was faith it. i prayed, asked, sougth, knocked, offered offerings and i just let it go, i told my self that i was done fretting or worrying about what will be. it was time i just sat and let things happen. well things actually ahappened. i got the letter yesterday and they approved my change of status and now i can feel normal again. i am at a loss at what to say, i feel liike GOD just goes out of his way to embarass us. isnt he just wonderfully great. i have been feeling so full of praise and thanks for teh hours after that encounter so hey if u ever read this, all i ask is a few word of thanks with me to GOD.
GRACE AND PEACE Y'ALL and a very wonderfull weekend too.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007


i was up as early as could be since i had to be at clinicals very early in the morning. i said a hurried prayer and headed in the shower. i was done and ready for my 54 minute drive when my phone rang and it was my mum. she called to say hello and as usual my day was made. i drove as fast as i could cos i already was late. i was stuck behind the train tracks,50minutes of my day gone, and all i wanted to do was appear to my preceptors as serious. i walked into the office my head held high in anticipation of what my day would be like;full of mysteries and a day of achievement.patients came in one after another, diagosis made and medications given, off they went in another 10-15 mins. As i went through the day, it became clear that we humans are ungrateful at how much we have,yet we keep complaining of the litlle things we think we dont have. along came a father with his two sons, one almost a teenager and the other a six year old. A CpK protein test was ordered and for you medicals you know what that means, this little boy had a strange waddle in his gait, he could not stand up from a squat without using accessory muscles: he probably has Duchenne muscular dystrophy. this dude may not live to his 12th birthday, the reason been that he may loose every single muscle tone in his body that he might end up in a wheelchair. this disease is an X-linked one it is a mutation on the number one band of the small arm of the x chromosome(X2p.1)literally his mum passed it on to him. it hurts to know that that poor woman will live her life guilt tripping when it was not her fault she was just a carrier. As i exchanged my views with the Doctor, i thought about my three brothers, how much i loved them and never want to see them hurt. But then i felt a thug at my heart, a feeling of ungratefulness. who told me i had a right to whine wen all i have is an occasional back ache and tension down my neck, who told me i had the right to whine when i can actually afford buying gas for my car who told me i had the right to whine when friends come to my house cos its warmer than theirs, who told me i have not been ungrateful when i go through the day not thanking GOD enough. i definitely would not want to be a 12 year old asthmatic that goes through his inhalers in less than 10days, definitely not a cancer survivor who now has a nerve defect from her chemo and a paraplegic for a son, definitely not a guy whose lungs are so fibrosed that he is a medical simulator for students. people we need to get on our knees and thank GOD. through our highs and lows he still sees us through. we are hail and hearty and our loved ones are doing great , we do good in school and others in our classes need stimulators to concentrate, we can afford to waste food and others go through months uncertain about what they would eat. we live in peace and kids in certain places have to fight for survival, living for them is a daily struggle. do i need to say more, the thanks need to keep going up, we need to thank the man upstairs for all the little perks that go unnoticed in our daily lives.
Psalms 66: 1-3a; 8-9;10-12;13-20
Make a joyful shout to the GOD ,all the earth ......make his presence glorious.......oh bless our GOD, you peoples! and make the voice of his praise heard, who keeps our soul among the living and does not allow our feet to be moved. verse 10- 12 talks about GOD testing us and refining us in the process just like silver, he lets affliction on us just to see how faithful we can be but amidst all he brings us to sweet FULFILLMENT. peeps we need to be grateful for everything.
it is my desire that i be like david and be grateful even when i have my face to the wall.
grace and peace and have a great rest of the week.

katy clinic

Dings and Chimes you hear as you go
Stethoscopes straped around necks
Cuffs and wires streaking around
welcomes you to the doctors office.

Questions and answers go back and forth
worries aggravate as anxiety mounts
everyone that comes in wants to know
what exactly is wrong with me

Kids and Adults walk hand-in-hand
Parents in oblivion as to what is wrong
soreness, restlessness and whining abound
boo-hoo and puking the order of the day

Angels in human form introduce themselves
vital signs are taken and recorded as well
reports are made to whom it concerns
shots and pills are given as thus

Days go by and people await their fates
some so good and others dissappointing
questions abound in the minds of the learned
what else is there to be done

Physicians work so hard that it hurts
Nurses assist with passion and dligence
but all the do is treat the pain
only GOD heals and makes a person whole

Monday, January 22, 2007


Life is a stage
living in this age
looks like a mirage
builds up like a rage

You think you got it all
and then its all at a stall
you wonder why its all gone
the feeling of being on top

i've learned a lot in life
the harsh and bitter sweet
the truth of it all remains
life is not a bed of roses

We cry and smile at life
happy to be alive
looking forward to the beauties
that reside around our cities

We yearn and long for good things
in all that life brings our way
to be the one in charge,
and have the best thereof.


what then is there to be said,
that it is bright or it is plain
the roads cry to be cleared
and people sniff for the stench.

its not the best of seasons;
not as nice as summer
nor nearly as beautiful as spring
it indeed does not speak for itself

it cries to be loved
but offcourse goes unheeded
as questions abide in the hearts of many
why do you litter?

it replies thus:
i am what nature made me
i stand to complete the cycle
of what begins in january

why would you not care about me
and look beyond beyond my physical beauty,
i have more than is seen
all it takes is a little more concentration.

Saturday, January 13, 2007


Much more than a cheer in mood,
more than offering a smile
not sown from thoughts alone
but comes from deep within the soul
its more of contentment of heart
than singing songs on a sunny day
it propels the hidden treasures
that rest beyond the bedrocks of man
it is a necessary condiment
for sweetness and rest of the mind.