Back for good!!!!

someone left me a message asking me to update my blog that it been four months, never knew time have flewn by so fast and lotta stuff has happened in the time past. for the people that used to read my blog, i do apologise for been gone, it would not happen cos there are lots to talk about as the day goes by and i see my life unfolding in teh direction that GOD wants and has destined it to go. i do am very greatful for many things. it would be me going back in time andtelling all that has happened and still is happening, thanks for reading my blogs i do appreciate it and would make your time worth the while,
grace and peace

overwhelmed

Web are humans and as such we have certain attributes that are undeniably present even though we try to subdue them sometimes. it takes years to know people and to build relationships with them. we sometimes are in oblivion as to how well we know these people or better still how far they have seeped into our beings. now the hard part would be to say goodbye when reality hits and they have to go, not like its bad, but then the thought of realligning your way of life and changing certain things about you that already was present just makes it all teh more difficult. i may not be making sence, but i feel like the unemotional person that i am can actually show emotions at this point in time when someone dear to be is gonna be gone a while, who am i kidding, it might actually be the last time i get to spend a weekend with the person for a pretty long time. what can i do but to pray that the future comes with many goodness for us all and that i can actually live knowing that the person is okay and having what they have desired for a pretty long time. peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pressures

Shrugs at our shoulders
tugs at our hearts
compromises we made
trying to fit a facade

Decisions are hard to make
to bite or not to taste
to wait or just give in
the bitter sweet truth be told

I pace and race in riverie
my ego and superego in rivalry
a tug of war-a balance not yet struck
i feel like i am stuck

Lessons from long ago
gifts are meant to be preserved
till its ripe to be upheld in full
the beauty and quality still assured

It is a societal epidemic
a fad but yet devastating
paths are tread with cher regrets
hopes that lines are pleasantly drawn.

EA

Friends forever she said we are
but then i said i miss ya much
in answer she said its hard to believe
cos its been s log since we last talked.

Time flies so a popular saying goes
but its effects on people cannot be undermined
oceans and elevations stand as a barrier
keeping people from seeing eachother

How was i to know how u felt?
i'm not a sorcerer at the very least
feelings are known only if spoken of
and this one a little difficult to detect

Misconceptions about my personality
am in a snort or am i an extrovert
too loud for comfort or just as should be
its not my fault that i am "liked by many"

But i cant deny the vacuum i feel
of loosing one so dear and special
years gone by and al so fast
wishing that things could be as they once were.

Cant tell it all

yesterday was just like everyother. went to bed at 3am when i have a class at 9 its a bad habit i need to stop, still working on it. went about my business, gave credit to whom it was due and headed for class cursing at the cold weather and wishing i didnt ahve to wince in pain from the cold stumping against my sides and chest. i slipped and almost fell like three times before i got into class. im in class and its all nice and dandy cos thank goodness i dont ahve to leave the building till 4pm so i dont ahve to risk getting back into the cold. well my fone rang while i wa sin class and it was some person who was looking for a place to stay. it so happened that i had been without a roomamte for two months and i have been footing teh bills all the while and for a person with no job, it comes at a bigger price than i am willing to pay. yes i get to live in peace and without interference from no body but then on the other ahnd i lack the wherewithal to live like that just yet. i walked out into the cold went tup to meet this person and talked about the possibilities of having to withstand this person for as needed. well it so happened that as i went with this person to pick teh persons bags and stuff and help the person settle in, i walked to pick my mails and what i saw made me so stupefied that for the next ten minutes i didi not say a word, i was aphasic and thought i probably had had a right sided strong or something. i had prayed for certain things to fall through for a pretty long time, and it ahd to do with the uscis, for you interbnational students that have had to do a change of status or the sought of thing, u would know what i am talking about, ithas drained me physically, finanacially, emotionally and u name it, at a point i began to question the reason i made a step but well it so happened that at a point all i did was faith it. i prayed, asked, sougth, knocked, offered offerings and i just let it go, i told my self that i was done fretting or worrying about what will be. it was time i just sat and let things happen. well things actually ahappened. i got the letter yesterday and they approved my change of status and now i can feel normal again. i am at a loss at what to say, i feel liike GOD just goes out of his way to embarass us. isnt he just wonderfully great. i have been feeling so full of praise and thanks for teh hours after that encounter so hey if u ever read this, all i ask is a few word of thanks with me to GOD.
GRACE AND PEACE Y'ALL and a very wonderfull weekend too.

GRATEFUL?

i was up as early as could be since i had to be at clinicals very early in the morning. i said a hurried prayer and headed in the shower. i was done and ready for my 54 minute drive when my phone rang and it was my mum. she called to say hello and as usual my day was made. i drove as fast as i could cos i already was late. i was stuck behind the train tracks,50minutes of my day gone, and all i wanted to do was appear to my preceptors as serious. i walked into the office my head held high in anticipation of what my day would be like;full of mysteries and a day of achievement.patients came in one after another, diagosis made and medications given, off they went in another 10-15 mins. As i went through the day, it became clear that we humans are ungrateful at how much we have,yet we keep complaining of the litlle things we think we dont have. along came a father with his two sons, one almost a teenager and the other a six year old. A CpK protein test was ordered and for you medicals you know what that means, this little boy had a strange waddle in his gait, he could not stand up from a squat without using accessory muscles: he probably has Duchenne muscular dystrophy. this dude may not live to his 12th birthday, the reason been that he may loose every single muscle tone in his body that he might end up in a wheelchair. this disease is an X-linked one it is a mutation on the number one band of the small arm of the x chromosome(X2p.1)literally his mum passed it on to him. it hurts to know that that poor woman will live her life guilt tripping when it was not her fault she was just a carrier. As i exchanged my views with the Doctor, i thought about my three brothers, how much i loved them and never want to see them hurt. But then i felt a thug at my heart, a feeling of ungratefulness. who told me i had a right to whine wen all i have is an occasional back ache and tension down my neck, who told me i had the right to whine when i can actually afford buying gas for my car who told me i had the right to whine when friends come to my house cos its warmer than theirs, who told me i have not been ungrateful when i go through the day not thanking GOD enough. i definitely would not want to be a 12 year old asthmatic that goes through his inhalers in less than 10days, definitely not a cancer survivor who now has a nerve defect from her chemo and a paraplegic for a son, definitely not a guy whose lungs are so fibrosed that he is a medical simulator for students. people we need to get on our knees and thank GOD. through our highs and lows he still sees us through. we are hail and hearty and our loved ones are doing great , we do good in school and others in our classes need stimulators to concentrate, we can afford to waste food and others go through months uncertain about what they would eat. we live in peace and kids in certain places have to fight for survival, living for them is a daily struggle. do i need to say more, the thanks need to keep going up, we need to thank the man upstairs for all the little perks that go unnoticed in our daily lives.
Psalms 66: 1-3a; 8-9;10-12;13-20
Make a joyful shout to the GOD ,all the earth ......make his presence glorious.......oh bless our GOD, you peoples! and make the voice of his praise heard, who keeps our soul among the living and does not allow our feet to be moved. verse 10- 12 talks about GOD testing us and refining us in the process just like silver, he lets affliction on us just to see how faithful we can be but amidst all he brings us to sweet FULFILLMENT. peeps we need to be grateful for everything.
it is my desire that i be like david and be grateful even when i have my face to the wall.
grace and peace and have a great rest of the week.

katy clinic

Dings and Chimes you hear as you go
Stethoscopes straped around necks
Cuffs and wires streaking around
welcomes you to the doctors office.

Questions and answers go back and forth
worries aggravate as anxiety mounts
everyone that comes in wants to know
what exactly is wrong with me

Kids and Adults walk hand-in-hand
Parents in oblivion as to what is wrong
soreness, restlessness and whining abound
boo-hoo and puking the order of the day

Angels in human form introduce themselves
vital signs are taken and recorded as well
reports are made to whom it concerns
shots and pills are given as thus

Days go by and people await their fates
some so good and others dissappointing
questions abound in the minds of the learned
what else is there to be done

Physicians work so hard that it hurts
Nurses assist with passion and dligence
but all the do is treat the pain
only GOD heals and makes a person whole