Mercy Said No

Was home chilling like errone does on a weekend. diid not have any thing to do other than study for an exam slated for the 22nd, i hope this is the last i get to write that exam(it will be in Jesus Name..AMEN). and i strolled into my room and did some singing along. just kept singing along with my ares playlist. each song i sang, had its own meaning and ministered to me, i was getting on my knees, only imagining what it would be like to be standing face to face with GOD and knowing that my redeemer lives......and as i was listening i knew that only GOD and he alone takes care of our fragile hearts. I am no saint, i have had to question GODS love for me many times. some times i ask him why he doesnt give up on me, especially when i think about the many things i do, and how i forget to appreciate his grace over my life and how i run away from the ministry he has given me.amidst all that he stilll cares. his grace and mercy remains and he deals with me in love, thats why when i get on my knees all i feel is love and power. i can hate that he loves me so, but one thing im sure of, is that he would never give up on me. join me and thank him for he never gives up on us.
grace and peace.

Beauty of numbers

Time flies by when we dont ahve nothing to do. we sit indoors wondering about our next move and then it hits, just maybe we were menat to be where we are. just maybe its part of a divine plan that we be where we are. For a while all i ahve done is find reasons not to be happy, all i do is ask questions i already have answers to. if he brought us to it, he would take us through it. i bet i have heard that over a thousand timnes and its one of my favorite phrases, so why cnat i take heed to that now when i truly need it. pain is almost a constant comapanion these days. my once dashing smile seems scarser than fuel in NIGERIA. Its been so hard to sit still and think of all the many plans i had and that seem to be changing concomitantly with the IMMIGRATION LAWS in the US. basically i wish GOD was standing before me telling me just what i wnat to hear, but then i know i have herad that small stil voice overe and over again, telling me just how much he has me taken care of in his own plan and purpose. he tells me how everything that happens in my life has been specially orchestrated by him for my sole good. sometimes i feel like i am selfish and other times i feel justified at my anger at GOD and the world. but then reality strikes and as i read Jaycees post on lifting up bloody hands and some otehr stuff, it occurs to me that his word had been confirmed over and over again, but i am so dogged and am slefish and unheeding and all i want to do is listen to my orgulous self. i dont know if i am making sense but sometimes the so called negative things may just be our lever of elevation. we need the valley experience to stay prudently when we get to the mountain top. so just maybe sometimes we would make greater leeway if we would stop complaining and actually do what we have been asked to do.so sometimes we need to listen to teh birds chirping, the winds gustling by our windows and the rain drumming on our window panes cos jus maybe those are answers to our many prayers. So hop on the bandwagon, let go of your pain and anguish, and live life to the fullest, it might be all you gat.

hope

speaker A
I want to run
As far as i can
from the voices i hear
the right and wrong

speaker B
is that all u can do
to retreat in cowardice
and run from yourself
to a land of demise and scum

speaker A
My dreams seem thwarted
i long for peace and rest
thousands of questions abound
exactly how far can i go

speaker B
You can go just as afr as you want
your strength lies within
use it as you please
for good or bad

speaker A
thats not much much help
i want a plan, a way out
a blueprint of revelations
a lodestone to my dreams

speaker B
you have that already
the smile that creases your face
the shimmer in your eyes
you gat hope

speaker A
i know i have hope
the paradoxical movements i feel
the flickering of my lashes
thats hope right there

speaker B
laugh it out dude
enjoy the sights of autumn
the chills are inevitable
its part of nature.

life deals us blows
all we need do is rise and flow
believing in our soul
the power to restore.

Back for good!!!!

someone left me a message asking me to update my blog that it been four months, never knew time have flewn by so fast and lotta stuff has happened in the time past. for the people that used to read my blog, i do apologise for been gone, it would not happen cos there are lots to talk about as the day goes by and i see my life unfolding in teh direction that GOD wants and has destined it to go. i do am very greatful for many things. it would be me going back in time andtelling all that has happened and still is happening, thanks for reading my blogs i do appreciate it and would make your time worth the while,
grace and peace

overwhelmed

Web are humans and as such we have certain attributes that are undeniably present even though we try to subdue them sometimes. it takes years to know people and to build relationships with them. we sometimes are in oblivion as to how well we know these people or better still how far they have seeped into our beings. now the hard part would be to say goodbye when reality hits and they have to go, not like its bad, but then the thought of realligning your way of life and changing certain things about you that already was present just makes it all teh more difficult. i may not be making sence, but i feel like the unemotional person that i am can actually show emotions at this point in time when someone dear to be is gonna be gone a while, who am i kidding, it might actually be the last time i get to spend a weekend with the person for a pretty long time. what can i do but to pray that the future comes with many goodness for us all and that i can actually live knowing that the person is okay and having what they have desired for a pretty long time. peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pressures

Shrugs at our shoulders
tugs at our hearts
compromises we made
trying to fit a facade

Decisions are hard to make
to bite or not to taste
to wait or just give in
the bitter sweet truth be told

I pace and race in riverie
my ego and superego in rivalry
a tug of war-a balance not yet struck
i feel like i am stuck

Lessons from long ago
gifts are meant to be preserved
till its ripe to be upheld in full
the beauty and quality still assured

It is a societal epidemic
a fad but yet devastating
paths are tread with cher regrets
hopes that lines are pleasantly drawn.

EA

Friends forever she said we are
but then i said i miss ya much
in answer she said its hard to believe
cos its been s log since we last talked.

Time flies so a popular saying goes
but its effects on people cannot be undermined
oceans and elevations stand as a barrier
keeping people from seeing eachother

How was i to know how u felt?
i'm not a sorcerer at the very least
feelings are known only if spoken of
and this one a little difficult to detect

Misconceptions about my personality
am in a snort or am i an extrovert
too loud for comfort or just as should be
its not my fault that i am "liked by many"

But i cant deny the vacuum i feel
of loosing one so dear and special
years gone by and al so fast
wishing that things could be as they once were.